Firstly thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope the fact it is in English is Ok, my German might be able to order me a bottle of beer but certainly wont be sufficient to navigate this forum. My only exposure to PU artistry, not sure if that is how I express it was The Game, a book which although I enjoyed, not sure if that is the right word, left me cringing and wholly skeptical of the whole scene. As the title says however, something, has got to give.
I am the guy who unless I am close to black out drunk is incapable to approaching a woman, or at least certainly not one I am actually sincerely attracted to. I am 33 and Irish. The thought of approaching a woman with some gimmick, a deck of cards, a trick, a line, I find abhorrent but I know I never come back from a club or a pub and feel anything other than inferior. Paradoxically I get women. I have slept with hundreds, probably close to 50 excluding paying for it, and sexually I feel absolutely at ease and confident, albeit a little afflicted by the hooks of pornography . I look fine, a bit jowly I guess since the irrepressible gravitational pull of age started to take effect. I frequently have girlfriends although rarely keep them as I am by and large unfaithful.
I never however feel anything other than consciously ill at ease in a group dynamic, to the extent that I always make my excuses, and leave, I used to go out alone where eventually if I drank enough I would muster the courage to approach a woman, normally one I felt I could "get". Sometimes this would end with hooking up sometimes not. I rarely went on a Tinder date without hooking up for example, although to be fair not the last few times. I do not say this to be boastful because as I have alluded to I feel like a total fucking cretin when it comes to approaching a woman.
I do not know what I hope to get from this but fuck it I am curious and something has got to give. I love women. I desire them, I want to better at approaching and sleeping with the ones I want. I am 33 years Old, my hope is I guess, is, that someone of a relatively similar age can take me under their wing, maybe go out for a drink and convince me. Fuck it. And Help me. I struggled to find anywhere I could read up about Berlin PU Community in English so again I hope it is Ok I posted here.
No idea where I posted this, presumably in the wrong place, so if someone can take pity on me stumbling around this vast landscape Id sincerely appreciate it!